Listening to someone talk about the nature of their cats and their unchangeable desire to hunt and kill it occurred to me how incredibly cruel we must seem to animals in a house with multiple types of pets.
I’ve lived in a home shared with (at one point) 2 turtles, several goldfish, 2 cats, 3 dogs, a ferret, and another human being. So many natural enemies in one home, I mean the two humans alone were dangerous enough to each other (one did eventually kill the other, but very slowly through financial and emotional draining – a sort of fiscal vampire). Surprisingly the animals all managed to get along and not kill each other (except the turtles and goldfish but the goldfish were only there to be eaten by the turtles). The cats would sometimes fight each other or the dogs, dogs with each other or the cats, but never more than growling and swatting. And like a parent, I’d bark at the kids and order was restored. Like they were actually human kids. But they weren’t, they were monsters.
At this point I lived about two blocks from a 7-11 where I regularly walked to grab a soda or snack before work, especially if the weather was nice. I put the dogs in the backyard which was surrounded by a chain-link fence, shut the latch, said hello to the men that had shown up to do some work on the side of the house (it was a rental, this was pretty common), and hit the road to go to 7-11. When I got back, things seemed normal, dogs waiting at the gate for me, guys working, so I started up the stairs back to my half of the duplex.
“Hey! These your dogs?”
“Uh…yeah.”
“They just killed my mom’s fuckin’ cat!”
“What are you talking about? They’re in my yard. I see no cat, good sir.” (I speak like I work at Medieval Times in my memory)
“They killed my mom’s fuckin’ cat and you’re gonna come down here and apologize to her.” I could smell the cholesterol dripping off his breath as he started walking closer. It may have been seeping out from the sweaty pits he left exposed from underneath his hairy ape-like arms hanging out of his sleeveless denim vest. Yes, that’s the kind of neighborhood I lived in.
“I must bid the well, good sir, as I must now journey to my place of labour.” (Even spelled it with the ‘u’, classy).
“Do you know who I am, boy?!”
Silence.
This continued for another minute or two until I walked into my house with him still outside. He eventually drove away or he had an invisible truck because when I changed and came out to go to work he was gone.
As I sauntered down the stairs, most likely imagining exactly how I was going to spend the next eight hours at work avoiding doing any actual work, the guys working on the house called out to me.
“Hey man, forgot to tell you earlier, when you were gone to the store the dogs got out and when they came back they were each holding the end of this cat and pulling at it. We took it from ’em and threw it under the porch.”
This is one of those moments where a new piece of information suddenly gets inserted into a puzzle in your mind and stops you in your tracks making you reevaluate your previous notions. Or, more simply, you realize you were an asshole (I did go and apologize).
These dogs were still dogs. Not children. Monsters. Killers. Beasts. I loved them the same but their understanding of the world was never going to be human. Their respect of the other animals in that house, specifically the cats, was based on how they viewed the house in dog terms. Sure, this means they probably thought of our cats as just other dogs in the pack, part of the house, but what if they didn’t? Every time I scolded them for nipping at Herman, that fat, fluffy bastard, I was just a bigger dog protecting my food. Stay the hell away from that cat, he’s mine and I’ll eat him when I’m ready, you little shit. For years, I was growing my food. Dogs have no sense of time. When you go to work and leave a dog at home it thinks you’ve been gone for an eternity. Dogs don’t know how to ration food. And there I was, keeping a piece of food alive that they couldn’t eat and just letting it wander around and drive them crazy with its fat, tasty body just laying in the sun staying warm all day. Then I’d come home and pour some sawdust and meat juice pressed into pellet balls into a bowl for them out of the crinkly bag that alerted them to “food products” while I toyed with my food that even seemed to have a name. For years. What a dick. Why did these animals listen to me?
It has to be worse in a house with cats and birds or cats and fish. There’s Tweety, just hanging out in the cage, singing his lonely little heart out day after day. Oh, what life must be like when you have skies to roam in, trees to perch in, nests to make. Day in, day out, the time passes so regularly. Some days seem shorter, the blanket seems to drop onto the cage a little earlier, some a little later. One day, sweet Lord, freedom will come.
Sylvester watches, drooling feverishly as the lonely song sends a tingling sensation starting in the ears and moving into his soul. Beautiful song to begin a dinner. As Sylvester creeps slyly around the wall the way a shadow moves and stretches with the changing of the daylight, ever closer to his prey, in comes the sadistic old woman with her stick that fans out at the end which she uses as discipline for the mistake of attempting to eat the meal she has suspended in the cage. Since a mere kitten this routine has repeated daily, punished for hunger and then held and cuddled. The mind games. I’m pretty positive that would almost count as psychological abuse.
And then we NEVER eat them! When one of these animals watches the other die then we just bury it in the ground or flush it down the toilet we must seem insane. Perfectly good rotting meat and there we are just tossing it into a hole for no one to enjoy. Wow, jerks. It has to be a lot like it feels if you moved from a place where you watched people starve to death and you catch your first glimpse of The Food Network. Or you see a trashcan outside of any restaurant in America. You know, it’s gotta be appetizing…I mean appalling…appalling. Yeah…that’s it.
I’m so hungry.